My Boyfriend

In real life, each faced with different problems. But everyone must see the problem.
Have anyone who don't meet problem in their life?
Now I was asking myself the same question why my life to encounter the problem.
Sometimes I'm very tired. Find something moderately good, it was found recently. But during that time met a bad thing It's a long time too. I often ask myself, "Why?".
But in fact I have respect for the Buddhist doctrine says. "Doing good is hard. But if you want to do evil, that is what is simple."
Sometimes I do not want to have problems all the time. Because of that, I know that makes me frustrated and bored.

Sometimes I want to run away from here. I've just come back at home. After that I went from home for almost 10 years.

This is the true story of my life the past nearly 10 years since my first steps of the house until I go back home again.

10 years ago, my life is simple. I grew up in a big family and have a relatively good position, because my family's business in the south of Thailand. My life time. I have to work at home. I don't have friends and never going out. If I want to go anywhere with relatives who grew up with only. In childhood I was wondering the same. Why my parents don't care about me like their son of my parents?

I have to keep in mind all the questions. But my grandmother said. "Do not think too much because My father don't like the daughter?"

I was trying to tell myself just thinking about this. My grandmother told me about it is enough to me. In my family, my uncle and aunt's interested in me. Except those who called my parents only. I just know myself that today, "Actually, it does not matter that my parents are interested in me or not. I have since it came today. But I try to give my parents interested in me. But not always successful one, not even once. I'm trying to learn better. And I try to work smart. I never got a compliment from my parents."

I tried until I was 18 years, I have friends who attend the same and the same room. I began to have social And my first boyfriend at age 18 as well.

The first time I hang out with my boyfriend, we are out to buy birthday gifts for women friends in my group. And my boyfriend will be available after school as well. Makes us out to dinner and buy each other gifts early in the evening. And when I walked back into the house. My father was sitting waiting for me. In general, my father has never interested me.

The first words my father said was. "No father's stomach." and "About going out at night."

My father is waiting to speak to me just two sentences only. And walked out of the home. (My parents did not live at home with me). When I walked back into the house. I remember that you've been around 1 pm when the sky is not dark, it just started. I'm confused, "My grandmother looked at me with eyes of understanding" while I was not understood.

My father became interested me more. But I think it was hunt and careful, "I will make a mistake." "I will make the family shame, because I have a boyfriend."

But I acted normal. Because it is not the time that I will be interested my father.

I and my boyfriend don't do anything wrong.

My boyfriend wants me to have confidence in myself more. My boyfriend is always cheer. And try to understand what happened to me.

But my father is unknown. As my boyfriend's very rich. From the sale of gold.

My father looks insulted my boyfriend all the time. And never expressed interest to my boyfriend. Until the day that my father knew the richness of my boyfriend. My father changed almost immediately to honor, interest and care of my boyfriend as well. So I was affected by the richness of my boyfriend.

My parents are interested in me. After that never interested me before, all the time 18 years ago. After I had a rich boyfriend. But my boyfriend does not care about what my parents changed. "Boyfriend I'm interested in just feeling my" boyfriend I was very good, a good habit, the son of good parents, a person hard work, efforts. And most importantly my boyfriend at my side always.

During the four years we knew each other in my life like a dream. It is different from normal life that I have experienced over 18 years were seen. My first boyfriend is the best man in my life. I have never seen a good man after a break up with my boyfriend.

We break it all arises from the bad in myself. That destroyed everything, including through the love of love, the love of family, love of friends. I am the only one who destroyed my own life.

I dated a man. At that time, I have relationships with my first boyfriend.
I slept with another man. And my first boyfriend to meet.
At that time, I don't think that I do is wrong. I blame my first boyfriend. He's don't have time to me.
We are studying different school And school is too far.
We are not living together.
My boyfriend lived at the home of relatives.
I stay at the apartment out alone.
My boyfriend is helping with work at the home of relatives.
Actually, my boyfriend had the time to stay with me 1-2 days a week.
But for various reasons, I blame my boyfriend do not have time for me.
If I get a gift, my boyfriend will be buying.
My boyfriend was an important reason and my boyfriend never flirt.
I just saw the very real after my boyfriend decided to walk away from my life.
I'm kidding myself all along, after the boyfriend left.
My boyfriend can not go from me.
My boyfriend will come back to me.
In other words, what I do with my boyfriend It was a grave mistake.
I want my boyfriend to know.
"Today I want to say out of my mind that I'm really sorry."
and Today I know about his feeling in that day.